Patience – WHEW! A difficult paradox to master. To me, patients aren’t a “thing” but more it understanding. Patience is the ability to observe, understand, plan THEN respond.
See what had happen was -I kind of got myself in a pickle! I had a huge “dog” back in Feb 06. I consulted my brother and we agreed that it was something that could be taken care of. So far so good – observation – check!
I understood the “dog” was a responsibility of macro proportions. We knew it would be extremely difficult to accomplish but well worth the effort once the reward was reaped. Because the “dog” was in my care the bulk and primary part of the decisions was mine to make along with the financial aspect of such. Understanding – uh kind ofâ€¦
I “thought” I had a plan. I knew the “dog” would be “x” big, require “x” food, and “x” resources. The plan I conceded required ALL of the existing resources I had available to me – including personal ones. Plan – sure IF nothing goes wrong or as long as my “dog” acts right and Murphy’s Law is not in effect.
I think you know where I am going – the “dog” wasn’t acting right (so I thought – it was just the nature of the dog), so I had the brilliant idea to get a another “dog”. This one is a puppy and I groomed her from a baby. The problem is I only had a set amount of dog food – so I borrowed food from my first “dog” to help groom and nurture my new puppy. My thoughts were that if I had two “dogs” they would keep each other in line.
The first “dog” is now ill and on the verge of expiring because of all of the harm I caused her. In retrospect I should have entertained and observed a full fiscal cycle with the first “dog” before I got the other. Responded – yea smooth move ex-lax, should have waited!!
With all of that said I now have two “dogs” to feed. They require “x” food per month and I cannot afford to keep them. The younger “dog” is on the verge of becoming a beautiful pedigree and my first “dog” would be ok if I could just stabilize her dietâ€¦however if I cannot get the required food, they will both soon perish.
Well as you can see, I observed, I understood (kind of), planned (based on shaky understanding) and responded too quickly. Yea patients/understanding is a commodity and should be harnessed and yielded whenever possible. Now I have to try and “fix” this problem and still keep the “dogs” alive. (sigh)
I am beside myself and in dismay at my response to my first dog, and now I am perplexed as to how to keep them all inline and alive.
Wish me luck!